New Years 2010

So 2010 finally here huh... 1
New starts, 2009 is the past now we have to continue with the future while we stay in the present. we think back at our moment that we regret (or we thought we did) all in the end they were moment or as some people call them memories. some were small and other big either way they were memories (Moments) that you will never forget. They'll stay with you and faid away in time, till then remember them learn from them. and try to relive them if possible. Don't forget about those moment you thought were taught learn from your mistakes and always forgive but never forget.

Till Then I Say My Good-Bye To 2009
&&&
Hello To 2010 A New Start With Some Old Memories (Moments)

Love Your Truly: Ms. Smile <3

My One True Love

You might never know who you love,
Or what you love. always be carefull in how you use the words
"I LOVE YOU" cause at the end you might en up regerting saying the words.
But all in the end you really dont care,
cause at the time you felt like they were "Your one true love."

- Dolly!

I fell down again, rip of the skin off the scabs

Poem Writing To Me By A Friend.

you make my day,
you make my worries faid away,
at times you leave me with nothing to say.
I know I live far away, but it a price I'm willing to pay,

so we can be connect in a way.

d so you wont be so far away,
when am next to you it feels like it's may,
you brighten my day.
and at times you leave me with nothing to say.
you make my worries faid away,
and looking forward to the next day.
having me excited in a way,
I'm haunted by your smile even thought I haven't seen it in a while.
but for you Sonia I'll walk the extra mile just to see you smile.
you make my day ,
you make my worries faid away,
at times you leave me with nothing to say but that not all I have to say.

Dreams..

My dreams have become my reality

everything so vivid nothing changes

word I hear is like death is coming closer and closer.

No where to run or hide, No one to ask for help.

Am alone with my mind playing tricks on me

I have no one to trust.

You're

Your the brab wire across
my heart keeps it together && tares it apart.
The horror of our love
which doeesn't exeist
for the kiss that remains unkiss.

Smile or Frown

Frowing For The Dreams, Smiling For The Screams
Either Way It Will Always Stay The Same.
Don't Try To Change It Might Come Back To Hunt You.

Believe

When you really want something sometimes you have to swim a little deeper you cant just give up because things don't come out easy. you have to overcome the obstacles and face your fears.
But in the end it all wroth while! Life is full of up and downs. But if you believe in yourself you always come through with fyling colors...value friendship, love and faith.
never underestimate yourself.
Believe in yourself

Happy

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, Let go of what you can't change.
Kiss slow, Play hard, Forgive quickly, Take chance, Give everything and have no regrets
Life too short to be anything..........But Happy

Be..

Be loved but never love.
Attach but never combien.
Trip but never fall.
To be broken is better than to be shattred.
Tell him of your strength, but never of your past.
Be trustworthy but never trust.
Be cracked but never open.

Hell Or Heaven?

I believe everything you do bad comes back to you.
So everything that I do bad, i'm going to suffer for it.
But in my heart....I belive everything am doing is right.
So i feel like am going to heaven.
I think heaven is just when you sleep, you sleep with good conscience, you dont have nightmares.
Hell is when you sleep, the last thing you see is all the fuck up things you did in your life and you just see it over and over again, cause you dont want to be burn.
If that the cause, it's hell on earth cause bullets burn

Henry Miller:

The moment one gives close attention to anything
even a blade of grass, it becomes a mysterious,
awesome, indecribabyl magnificent world in itself

My Place

You'll never leave
Where you are
Until you decied
where you rather be

Sweet Dreams...

So I'll sleep away because my dreams are so sweet;
Now that you're in them I dont wann leave..this place without you.

Funny!

Life is funny sometimes, but if you look close enough you find hope.
In the words of childern, In bar of a songs,And in the eye of someone you love.
And if your lucky enough...That person will decied to love you back.

Leaf..?

Who should be blame when a leaf fell from a tree?
..is it the wind that blew it away, is it the tree that let it go or is it the left that never really hold on from the very start.

It's

It's about love
It's about compassion
It's about kindness, And faith
It has nothing to do with luck
You get what you give, So give good.

"I WIll Miss You's"

I go in my room and cry cause my life is passing by to fast to enjoy it.
When I leave to start over, I know I will be homesick.
But so much miss the house but be heartsick.
I'll also miss the people who left handprint on my heart,
And the ones who throw me away and made me stronger.
Friends come and go to quickly to even say the words "I Miss You"
I'm a person who loved too much but, got nothing in return.

...

You have

to die to live

and live to die

quote by Michelangelo di Lodovico Buonarroti Simoni

"The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark."

Remeber Always

"Remember all of the good times and all of the special people that were with you during them. Let go of the past, but don't forget it because there are a great many things that can be learned from what you have been through. And most importantly: follow your heart, stand up for what you believe in, and take your own path, always do what you want to do."

Qoute by Ralph Waldo Emerson

"finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."

L'imperfecttion est la cime

il y avait qu'il fallait détruire et détruire et détruire

il y avait que le salut n'est qu'à ce prix

ruiner la face nue qui monte dans le marbre

marteler toute forme, toute beauté

aimer la perfection parcequ'elle est le seuil

mais la nier sitôt connue

l'oublier morte.

L'imperfection est la cime.

Translation from French to English

So one had to destory and destory.

There was salvation only a price.

The ruin the naked face the rise in the marble.

to hammer down every from and beuty

to love perfection because it is the therehold.

But deny it, once know and forget it, dead.

Imperfection is the summit.

"beauty is not blonde, love is not first sight, family is not for gain, respect is not a right, knowledge is not key, magic is not pretend, peace is not paper, goodbye is not the end."

I want...

"i want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, the everything you need, just what you want... i want to be yours

ugh

"Believe nothing, no matter where you read it or who has said it, even if i have said it, unless it agrees with your own common sense

Fine I'll admit it;

I think of you every second of ever day. You're my favorite subject to talk about. When I hug you I wish I could never let go. All of my dreams have you in them. I always get excited when I see you again. & I'm completely in love with you."

You change my world

with one smile that i just cant help but to smile back.
with one hug that i never want to let go.
with one kisss tht make me melt in side.
you just took my heart away......

Wanting

Never stop dreaming
there nothing with wanting
something more.

Oh wow Idk what am going to do.....

"he isnt my boyfriend but i love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his kindness, and the times when we laugh together, i guess i fell in love with our friendship"

Love Is:

"True Love is when: you shed a tear and still want him. It's when he ignores you, yet you still love him. It's when he loves another girl, but you still smile and say, "I'm happy for you," when all you really want to do is cry... and cry."

How?

How do you know?
when he love you?
when you screamat him and he just calms you down
when you hit him and he pulls you into a kiss.
when you cry and he does the impossible to bring that smile again.
whe you tell him you hate him and he say I love you too baby.
when you push him away and he pulls you into a tight hug and doesnt let go.
that when you know he love you no matter what.

I wann know.

I wann know so bad what in your mind
I wann know what up
I wann know what going to happen
But when i get the chance to say it i wimp out
cause I dont want to mess things up between us.
I wann know so bad If you meant what you say.
I wann know if it true.
I wann know if it worth been here with you.
I wann know if this will last.
I wann know if you really like me.
I wann know.....

I don't

I don't care about you
I don't care about most of my family
I'm sick and tired of all you guys gain on me
Let me do my life in peace.
I don't say I love you
cause last time i said I got hurt a lot.
so I decide to hurt myself.
all that in the past.
I have no respect for you since you have none for me.
I push you a side like you did too me for 6 years.
So far the only people that care are my friends and not even half of my family.
Fuck it am living my life my way hahaha

normal?

sometimes when you think everything
going right something goes wrong
you try to fix it or ignore it
and things get worse either way.
so there no way to get things back
but wait Thur it all.
bad Thur bad Thur
good Thur good Thur
till things are back to normal
if that what it called.

For Sure

For Sure, Fore Sure

I dont belive in love.....untill it happens.

Without.

Love me without fear
Trust me without wondering
Love me without restristion
Want me without demand
By mostly accept me how I am.

Always

A guy and a girl can just be friends......
But at one point or another, they will fall for each other......
Maybe temporily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or just maybe forever......

Overrated!

Sleep is overrated
we stay awake and cry
If this is love,
Kill me now and
Save me from my life

Here to life

Hanging out, Making out
Sneaking out, Passing out
Whatever happens, happens
NO REGRETS! haha

Watch and see.

One day your life will flash before your eyes make sure it worth watching.

The turth about forever

"We both know like is short,
Too short to waste one single
second with anyone who doesn't
appriceate and value you."

Quote from: The Movie "Away From Her" (2006)

"sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren't ever what you hoped they'd be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way."

Some true Some not.

I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people, to push myself. I was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all, to fight for myself.

A great thought begins by seeing something differently, with a shift of the mind's eye. -Albert Einstein

goodbyes.

Goodbyes make you think,
they make you relize
what you had
what you've lost
& what you've taken for granted.

True

Life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances , losing and finding happiness , appreciating the memories and learning from the past .

...

Don't let the sadness of your past
& the fear of your future ruin the
happiness of your persent.

who's who's

There come a point in

you life when you realize

who matter, who never did,

who wont anymore,

and who always will.

So don't worry about

the people from your past.

There a reason

why they didn't make it to

the future.

Life.

Life
Is about taking chances;
About doing something
Everyone said you couldn't do;
It's about acting goofy;
It's about not caring
what other people think;
It's about learning to
love what you got
and remember what you had;

Risk

To love is to risk,
Not been in love return
To hope is to risk the pain.
To try is to risk the failure,
But risk must be taken
because the greats hazard in
life is to risk evrything.

Time

One thing that I've learned in life

is to take risk when you can,

because time runs out,

Feeling change,

& what you once thought could happen

Wont happen

All because you took too long.

Made By Unknow..... giving to me.

I'm all by myself.

Playing a tune.

knowing you'll be here.

you'll be here soon.

I wait on the bench.

Playing my guitar.

waiting for my girl.

So I can give her my heart.

I see her through the crowd.

So I call her name.

Knowing you'll come.

Knowing you'll be the same.

We hug and we kiss.

And we know this will last.

Cause what up ahead.

Is better than the past.

Love Is Hurtfull

With bleeding wrist,
I confess my love to you.
Yet you have forgotten me,
the blade waver in my hand.
The words "I Love You" die.
In each slit on false painted lips.
You love another as you forget me.
Forget my Passion.

Appreciate

If there one thing I learned.

It's that we never feel the heat

Until we get burned

But oh, we try so hard not to die

sometimes we forget to

Appreciate life.

Short

Life is too short to wake up in the morning
with regrets. So love the people who treat you right,
Forget about the the one who don't. Believe that
everything happeneds for a reason. If you get a chance,
take it. If it changes your life, then let it.
Nobody said it be easy, they just promised it be
Worth it.

Hour Glass

Just when you think things can get
any worse, they do. I've learned life is
like a hour glass, and when things hit
the rock bottom. you just have to wait for
it to trun back around again.

Your Fault!!

Life doesn't hurt until you think about,
How much things have changed,
Who you've lost along the way,
And how much it was your fault.

I've

I've made my mistakes in life.
I've let people take advantage of me,
And I accepted way less than I deserve.
But I learned from my bad choices
and even though there are some things
I can never get back and poeple who will
never be sorry. I'll know better next time and
I wont settle for anything less than I deserve.

Life

You have to take the good with the bad
Smile when your sad.
Love what you got and remeber what you had....
Always forgive but never forget, Learn from
your mistakes but never regret, People change,
Things go worng, just remeber
Life goes on.

Past, Persent, Furture

One day at time, this is enough.
Do not griever over the past for it
Has gone; and do not be troubled
about the furture, for it has not yet come.
Live in the persent, and make it beutiful
It will be worth remebering.

New Life New Start

Today Might Be Different then tomorrow
So don't give up on hopes or dreams
Keep then alive and vivid to the fullest
Don't give up on anything
Life might come at you at ruff times
but you just got to go through it
And live like it was your last day.

Unknow

In your life
you always try to find who you are.
But sometimes find who you are
Take you your whole life.
It better to live it now.
Or losse you time in your life
So live it to the fullst each day no matter what.
Forgive and Forget
whatever happends happends
you learn from your mistakes
If you get it worng once
you can always do it again.
don't waste time with something stupid
Enjoy everything that happends
Forget people that make your life a living hell
Forgive them for what they did
and enjoy every mintue of your life.
Live, Life, Love.

New

I wann be the girl

He gives his hoodie

to wear && cuddles up

next to when i't cold,

He'll be the one who

comes up behind me,

wraping his arms around

my waist,& Catches me off

guard && whispers you look beutiful.

Sorry vane for what happened with you and jason.

Nobody understands how much I miss you
I miss how much we used to talk
& I miss all the things we used to do.
I try not to idmit to myself
That I still feel this way.
Nobody knows that I still wake up
Thinkin of you each day.
I still think of you & I really do miss you.
I would give up everything I have
To be everything were not.....

Unknow.

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love
And I can't let you go.

Can't

I can't stop thinking

About what can happened If I

Press the razor so hard up against my wrist

that it cut so deep. And it would hit my vane

I would bleed to death.

My only regrets would be not saying

To the people that I like that I like them

and what could happened if we ever went out.

I would call all my friends tell them am sorry and that i would miss them

I would thank "EVERYONE" that help me sometimes when I need it.

But sometimes there help wasn't enough and am sorry.

Don't worry this is not a suicide note.

If you don't believe me then message me or text me

Or call me if you have my number =)

Need to know.

I wonder every night

think if you only
want to be friends or more

you say you still want me but.

I don't have time for silly game.

This is my life
and if your going to be like that then

there no point for me waiting for you

to decide if you want me or not.

right now i rather
tell you we can't be friends

Easy but hurtful.

I still like you
but Life doesn't have stop

All i want to know
if you do want to get back together or just friends
even though it going to be painful

But I'll do anything to still be your friends

so hurry i need to know.

Or lose me forever !!

Other Dream I Been Having Also

Am in my room
My mom start to call me
she starts to yell at me
I don't know about what.
I start to cry she hit me. I feel the pain
Then my older sister comes and she also start to yell
they both are yelling then my other sister and my dad
then my brother and my grandma there all yelling at me
They all start to hit me. I feel the pain.
It hurt like hell.
They push me to the wall
There all still puching me and hitting me.

I wake up with tears in my eyes
and I can still feel the pain in my body
I don't know what to do or think
So i just lay there.

Sometimes

• Sometimes you just need someone.

  Someone to make you smile when your sad.

  Someone to tell you your beutiful.

  Someone to look forward to seening every day.

  Somone to call you every night.

  Someone to say I love you and meant it.

  Sometimes you just need someone.

Why

When you feel life giving up,

Remember why you held on

For so long in

The first
place

You.

It's unfortunate that people take advantage

of the things that make up the most of their lives.

I live ,my life according to other, And always make sure that i'm happy.

If i'm not, then you'll know.

I wear my feeling on my sleeves

and see through people extermely well.

the instant i'm uncomfortable around you,

I'll be gone

....

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So... Explore. Dream. Discover."

Life quote by: Samuel Langhorne Clemens (1835-1910) better known by the pen name Mark Twain, who was an American author and humorist

Knowing

I am strong, because I am weak.

I am beautiful, because I know my flaws.

I am a lover, because I am a fighter.

I am fearless, because I have been afraid.

I am wise, because I have been foolish.

And I can laugh, because I've known
sadness.

Anyways

You just have to go
After what you want
& If it doesn't want
You back then so be it
It doesn't deserve
You anyways

always

Do what makes you happy

Be with the one who make you smile

Laugh as much as you can breathe

& Love as long as you can live.

sme dream every night for the past month

I am in church
It's just ended
I'm walking to the door
when I see her standing there
looking at me
after all these years
I thought she was gone forever
Am walking closer to her
she start to talk
I can't hear her
I try to talk and tell her to speak loader
but i can't speak
I scream but she can't hear
She still speaking
Ugh I wish she can hear me
She was my everything
She always listen to me
She was my best friends
Until that day
When she pass away
My heart feel into a million piece
Everyday I wish for her to be here with me.
Am standing here in church seen her trying
To tell her that i miss her.
But she keep talking and I can't talk
She stop talking and I still can't talk
She starting to walk away
I scream and scream but she can't her me
I scream more.


Then I walk up tyring to figure out what she said
but I can't cause I couldn't hear.
or cause I didn't listen because I want to say something.

Everything

I belive that everything happends for a reason people change so that you can learn to let go,things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they're right you belive lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourselfand sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Life

Life is a joy ride
you kget on
or you fall back and disapper
in joy life to the fullst
you never know when life might end


my life almost came to a end
I won't be here
Right now i would been 6 six feet under
If it wasn't for my friends and some of my family
I love my friends and family I thank them everyday
even if they don't know it
everyday i think about my past
and how mess up it was.
and how i was really mess up after my best friends death
but it all in my past like i say
past it past it the persent not the furture

Don't Know

Don't know what going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred of years I
Still I can't belive your gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life
Don't know what going
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't belive your gone
So I'll stay up all night long
With this bloodshot eyes
While these wall surround me with the
Story of our lifes

As It Comes To An End

As I sit here in class,I observe my friends And look forward to the year Coming to an end.It's gonna be sad To say good- bye. I'll miss everyone.I know I will cry.I remember the day When I came back To be with my friends And get on the right track.We had so many moments; Some bad, most great .I'll always remember the love And erase the hate. I don't wanna say good- bye To all my friends.I don't want this year To come to an end.

The one

You shouldn't be anyone special to me,

Your just another guy,

You shouldn't lead me on ,

Speacialy if it's a lies ,

One day it love ,

The next day it done,

You hurt me so much,

To be the one.

Pain 2#

Pain, you just a ride it out,
hopes it goes away on it own,
hope the wounds that cause it heal.

There are no solutions,
No easy answers.

You just breath deep and wait
for it to subside.

Most of the pain
can be manage,
but sometimes the pain get you,
when you least expect it, hits you,
below the belt and doesn't let up,

Pain, you just have to fight,
through becasue the truth is,
you can't outrun it,
and life always make more.

Without

Pain wtihout love,
Pain can't get enough,
Pain, It like rough,
Cause i'd rather feel
Pain than nothing at all.

???

She has the eyes of innocence,
The face of a angle,
A personality of a dreamer,
And a smile
That hides more pain
Thean you can ever imagine

Pain

Have you ever had the heartache?
or ever felt pain,
or ever shed a million tears.

If you never had pain,
Pray you never do,
Knowing that i want you hurts,
When I know i can't have you,

Kiss Me

Kiss me
So I don't have to feel the pain and sarrow
Kiss me
So I can forget about my past
Kiss me
Like there was no tomorrow
Kiss me
So I can start a new furture
Kiss me
So the pain in my heart would dissaper
Kiss me
Like it was our first kiss

Me And You--->>>For Danny

Me and you

Can never be

We are so different

Like chocolate and soda together

Which means we will never be

The only thing we can be is

Friends

Cause at that point

soda and chocolate

combine as friends

Side by side and not together

The Sarrow And The Pain

The sarrow and the pain

In my heart

Can never be replace

I wish a millions time

That the Pain and sarrow

Would dissaper like all my friends have in the past

I wish they last longer

Maybe until the end of time

But that would never be really

Cause sooner or later

They had to rest in peace.

I'm

I'm Feeling Unperturbed as some people say,
I'm Feeling Depress with everything going on,
I'm Feeling Livid cause I can't take life any more,
People say am "Vendetta",
And I think I believe them,
To me am unique, crazy, Short,wild, I never regret anything in my life,
Some people say I should regret the things I have done,
But I'll never do that cause I'll be what I want to be.
I'm Sonia E.Ibarra De Leon Salazar Balacio
But Mostly I'm: Munchikin/Chuck/Vendetta/Shorty/Green Fingers/Soni
Plus More

I Can't Keep Waiting

Am sick am tired of this bullshit!

I don't care anymore am moving on,

I can't keep waiting for you,

After you told me that you still love me,

I thought we were getting back together,

I keep waiting for you to ask me out again,

But you never ask!

And i can't keep waiting for you,

I still want to get back together,

But I can't keep waiting.

Why

Why

Do you have to play with my heart?

When you know how I feel about you,

After all we went tru,

I did it all for you,

You change my life,

That I'll never forget,

But I still wish we lasted longer,

Maybe until you left,

I want to spend everyday with you,

Until that day came,

But i know that not possible,

cause you didn't want to see me get hurt,

When you left....but I still will be,

Cause your not by my side,

But you left me too soon,

With this broken heart,

I know you try to fix it what happened,

And I know it not your fault for what happened,

But I love you cause you try fixing my heart,

Just remember ,

I love you,

No matter ,

What happens.

Thinking

Your always in my mind,

I think about you all day and night ,

Even when we can't be seen together ,

You know how I feel about you,

You change my life,

And I'll never forget that,

You always but a smile on my face,

Even when thing are wrong,

You make me think why,

Your not like any person i meet,

You make my life crazy and wild,

Which I love,

Even when everything is wrong,

You make me think twice,

Before I do It,

You make not want to cut my self,

So that I can live,

To see you smile at me once again.

Missing

I miss someone,

can you guess who,

I miss someone

could it be true,

Stop smiling fool,

Cause it anit you,

My Dream

In a day like this, Am dreaming away as my finger fitting perfectly as i hold your hand...your eyes piercing through mine , while this cool breeze caresses in this moment, the moment that was made only for use, steal me away Thur this infinite passion, as you once stole my heart, look up at the sky as I'm not far away, we see the same moon in this comely sky, In a dream i saw you, and now I can't forget about you, Keep me in your thoughts, Love me in your dreams, for one day love each other , In Reality.

???

A smack around the face,

slits on my wrist,

Everyday ends like this,

Live a life of,

Mystery and hate,

I dream of been

Love and safe.

"I Promise"

I promise,

Never to forget the day we kiss,

Or the day we meet.....

The sky may fall,

And the stars will too,

But in the end,

I will still,

Love you.

"Vendetta"

You stupid little bitch, hoe, slut, stalker
I hope you fall of the face of the earth and disappear forever
And if you kill me before I kill you ill hunt you in your sleep and in daylight hours
Until you are beside me in hell...

Sorry Cause of the bad words....

"I am gone"

I may be gone,

but never fear,

I love you,

So am always near,

I may be gone,

But I'll be close,

Always know I love you most,

I may be gone,

But I love you so,

I'm at your side,

So don't let go,

I look into your eyes you look back at me,

We both know we can't be together ,

But we can't stay apart from each other,

It killing me because I would give anything just to hold you one last time.

Everyday & Everynight

Everyday and Everynight

I think about you all day and night

when I see you smile

It reminds me of

The flowers bluming in the summer moring

If you are ever gone

You can see the darkness

In my eyes and in the cloudy's

If am ever gone

I know you'll see the darkness

In the cloudy's and in your eyes

I know life is hard to belive but always trusth your heart over mind

Even knowing life is unbearable

Alawys think of cares things

Instead of darkness moments in life

Even knowing life might change

Aways know

Love always stay